For a long time the idea of calling me a photographer has sounded so pretentious to me. Now, hearing others calling me a photographer should not affect me sound so showy, I mean it pretty much says it on the back of my work uniform. I know more than what I ever did on my own. I only picked it up as a hobby a couple years ago, but I feel like I see the world in different perspectives and notice the features of everyday things that others often miss. Hearing what people say about some of my shots gives me so much affirmation and validation about what I’m doing is worth something. I would shy away and think no way it’s nothing I just point and then shoot. Once I started getting requests for paid shoots I was in disbelief and overwhelmed that someone believes in what I do so much that they’ll pay me for my time and effort. Yet, I shrugged it off and tried to be modest and I still couldn’t see my worth.
A few hours ago I received a check in my hand as payment for my photography. My photos will be displayed in the middle of the UTC mall for hungry customers of the new Frost Me Gourmet Cupcakes that will open in 2 weeks. I was so happy to finally finish that project and to savor in the idea that the photos I did for the bakery is going to be out there for people to see.
You supported me with this when I couldn’t even see my own worth. I was scared to this, but all I needed was that extra hard and truthful push from you. I guess you’re right; you are my backbone, my support. That little argument weeks ago gave me that boost of confidence I needed to help me realize that I am good at what I do. I feel like I’m rambling on with this throughout the night, but I am so grateful.
All that became a catalyst to more photography opportunities and also a boost of self-confidence in more aspects than this one.